17 weeks

Life certainly has a way of throwing curveballs and things never quite stay the same no matter what you do. In a world that feels incredibly chaotic sometimes, I can feel myself becoming so stressed by it and amazingly Alex has helped to keep me grounded through it all. I know everyone has problems but my family has taken on something devastating this year. I'm not great at dealing with all that's happened. Initially, I had to keep myself healthy-protect my pregnancy-protect my child. I still feel like I am trying to protect him by not letting it all get to me, although there are times when I feel pretty broken. I guess what I am trying to say is that there will always be ups and downs in life. Some will be much more severe than others. I am simultaneously experiencing my worst/best days this year. I am dealing with becoming a mother and losing one. I will tell you that Alex is the brightest spot in my life right now. He is such a beautiful, amazing child. I am so thankful he is here to smile and brighten some of my bleakest moments.

Beautiful baby.

James trying to get Alex to crawl.

Sitting with mama.

Sitting by myself!

Yummy Gum-E!

17 weeks